Rottenella

I think I've done something bad. My face keeps burning up and I feel like a bunch of butterflies are inside of me. I don't think I can face anyone ever again. I was at another party and just out of nowhere, did something really stupid. I couldn't help myself. I kissed someone on the cheek.. and told them some other stuff I was trying to keep secret.. Then I ran out of the party and hid away. Maybe no one remembers now.. I hope they don't.

Okay, it's my first Christmas, and Robbie refuses to celebrate it! He just wants to sit around and stew in his hatred. Well that's fine!! It's not like I spent hours coming up with a new dance just for him or anything. I'm not expecting much will happen today, and I doubt he even bothered to get a present for me. Whatever.

None of my friends seem to be around either. Trixie is sick, and Stephanie is probably busy doing family stuff. Oh well, at least I got to go to a Christmas party the other night at Mirandas. It was much better than the ball, until Dash showed up and was causing all kinds of trouble. I really tried to keep myself from hurting him, but I just couldn't help it. We went outside and I tripped him all over the front yard. He said I didn't know how to fight proper, and that what I did was cheap, but I don't care. Someone had to shut him up.

Stephanie if you are around later, please come over, I am so miserable..

So the ball was the other day, and it seemed like everyone had such a great time. I should have too, since it was a dancing event, but I felt kind of left out. Most people had dates, or if they didn't, they had someone to dance with. I really do love to dance, so I went and danced by myself.. but I felt so lonely. I wanted.. someone.. to hold onto and slow dance with.. but I couldn't get up the nerve to ask. If Robbie had stayed, I could have at least danced with him as a last resort, but he just wanted to drop me and those rotten cookies off. Which I should add, seemed like a funny idea at the time. But then when I heard how they made everyone really sick, I started to feel kind of badly about it.

Oh well...

So it seems everything is finally settling down. Theres no longer anybody in the lair besides me and Robbie.. and while it is kind of nice, Robbie has been impossibly grumpy lately. I don't know why.. but he's just driving me crazy. He complains about everything, but the worst is when I have music on. He storms in my room and keeps shutting it off. How can I dance without any music, Robbie??

In other news, I played with Stephanie again today, and we had a really great time. First I showed her the new dance move I came up with, then she showed me how to play in the snow. I always wondered what it was there for, and now I know! It's for making snowangels, snowmen and my personal favourite - having snowball fights! I'm pretty sure I won, and I even managed to hit that nasty Dash kid right in the face when he walked past!!

Well.. I spent the day with Stephanie today, coming up with ideas for Robbie's party. It's so strange... the only reason I was brought to life was to be her rival.. and for awhile I couldn't stop feeling hate towards her. I don't know what happened, but that's gone away. I guess after seeing how awful Veronica was to Robbie, and how that Dash kid treats everyone... I realized that Stephanie hadn't done anything wrong at all. There's no reason to hate her.

P.S> The new dance we're going to do at Robbie's party will blow you all away!

As you probably know, Robbie and Veronica have broken up for good. It's taken me awhile to understand it all.. I sorta just hid away for awhile. I'm so angry with Veronica for what she did, and I don't know if I can ever forgive her.

Robbie seems to be taking it all pretty well, but I can tell that deep down he's really upset. That's why I've decided to throw him a party to make him feel better! I already started talking about it with Papier, and she's going to bake a cake. Stephanie seems interested too, and I'm hoping she can bring some music so we can do some dancing. If you want to come to Robbie's party, just let us know!

Well, things seemed to to go from good to bad to horrible, and now back to good again. I'm so relieved. First of all, Robbie and Veronica got into a fight. It was so nasty that Robbie just up and left to who knows where. I didn't want to be alone with Rob Sexton, so Sportacus offered to let me live with him in his airship for awhile. It was a whole different experience being up so high that I could see the whole town, and even further than that. There was so much beyond Lazytown, and I want to see it all someday. Sportacus even let me ride on his 'skychaser'. I wasn't sure about it at first, but once I got to flying around on it, I loved it.

A few hours later, Robbie and Veronica chatted on AIM with me, and he proposed to her from his laptop! I couldn't believe that they went from fighting to proposing, but I'm not going to complain. I still don't know where Robbie ran off to, but he says he's coming back tomorrow. I hope so, because I miss him... a little..
Also, Rob Sexton sent me a message just a few minutes ago asking when i'm coming back to the lair, and promising he wasn't up to no good with Robbie. I decided to believe him for now. We'll see what happens.

Robbie knocked on my door yesterday, telling me he had a surprise for me in the hallway closet. I laughed, because I was sure he was going to shove me in when I went to look. That's what I would have done. I was surprised when he had presents for me, because no one has ever gotten me a present before. To top it all off, there were some clothes for me, made by Rob Sexton. I have to admit I really like them, but this doesn't mean he's bribed me into liking him just yet, though I might come out of my room more often now.

P.S. OH, Robbie and Veronica are dating again! I knew it would happen eventually, and I'm so excited that I just want to dance all day long.

P.P.S. Pixel, stop drooling over Stephanie, and get me my auto-winder. I'll need it before I leave for my trip.

Listen up, and listen good, I'm really really mad. Do you know why? Rob Sexton, that's why. This guy just showed up out of nowhere, and Robbie let him move in with us. That's right, a guy that neither of us knew is now living in our house. He's always got a sneaky look on his face, and I'm positive he's up to no good. You should see the way he stares at Robbie. He tried to talk to me, but I didn't want anything to do with him, so I locked myself in my room. Robbie and Veronica have been trying to convince me that he's a really nice guy, but I don't believe it. I even made plans to dance with Pinky so I could get out of the lair, away from Rob Sexton.

Okay, the good news is that it looks like Robbie and Veronica might get back together. I was eavesdropping on them and they talked about trying again. I'm so glad they are working things out. Hopefully when Veronica moves in with us, Rob will have to leave. I can't wait!

Trixie and I had a sleepover the other night, and it was the best time i've had in the whole time i've been alive. First we played some video games that she brought over, and I wasn't very good, but when I make Robbie buy me my own videogame system, I'll get really good, just watch. So after that, I taught Trixie how to dance. At first she kept falling over, but I think she caught on after awhile. Maybe she'll be able to beat Pinky one day. Actually, that wouldn't be hard at all. Okay, she'll be better than Pinky, but not as good as me. After the dancing, we tied Robbie up since he was being really grumpy and spoiling our fun. I put him in the closet like he used to do to me, and we didn't let him out for a whole hour. I hope he learned his lesson. He hasn't really talked to me since though. Trixie thinks we might have over done it, but whatever, he had it coming.

The other day I was chatting to Robbie, and he started talking about a word that starts with an S, has an E in the middle and ends in an X. I didn't know what it meant, and he refused to tell me. Then he got all embarassed and locked himself in the bathroom. I didn't know what to do, because I wanted to know really badly what it meant, so I did the only thing I could think of, and went to talk to Veronica. She explained it all to me and even said that her and Robbie did it before when they were together. It was so gross thinking of Robbie doing it that the food I ate at the picnic all came back up.

Anyways, that's what's i've been doing lately, and soon i'll get to go in Sportacus' airship and visit the woman who made me. It'll be my first adventure!

Last night I forgot to wind myself up, so I was just sitting there for hours and something happened. I'm having trouble trying to explain it, but it was like I was watching a movie in my head. What I was seeing seemed to be from a long time ago when I was still a toy in a music box. I saw a woman, and I'm pretty sure she was the one who made me. She was connecting me to the music box, and talking to me, but I couldn't understand what she was saying.

When Robbie finally came and wound me up, I couldn't see it anymore. I didn't tell him then, because I was too confused, but i'm sure he'll end up reading it now.

I can't stop thinking about this, and I think I want to try and find the place I saw, and the woman who made me. Is there anyone who would come with me? I've never been out of Lazytown, so I can't do it myself. I don't really know where to start looking, but maybe if Robbie could tell me where he got the music box, it would be a good start.

I don't really know what i'll do if I find her, but I just have to do this.

There's a lot to talk about today.. First of all, I was talking to Trixie last night, and she told me that I should try talking to Stephanie. Maybe it would help me be nicer to her, so I did for awhile, but it was really hard. The only reason I was created at all was to beat her in the duel, and I don't know if i'll ever be able to get over my competitive feelings.

Last night with Trixie, we also talked about our team for basketball. So far we've got me her and Ziggy. Then I decided to ask Sportacus to be on our team. I identified two emotions when I asked. First I was nervous for what his answer would be, and then I was happy when he said yes.

Now onto Robbie. (Great..) So Robbie doesn't approve of me having a room in Veronica's house, because he's jealous that Veronica and I are getting along so well. He thinks she's trying to be my mother. I've never had one, but if Veronica wants to be my mother, I would be so happy.
I hardly get a chance to even talk to Robbie about this stuff, since lately he's been out all the time. He's probably with Cherry, or just creeping around town in the dark. I guess I kind of miss him, maybe. Not a lot or anything..

Oh and Pixel, did you make me my auto-winder yet?

I've been so busy I forgot to post for yesterday, I'm 'sorry' to anyone who cares. I was out for the first time ever, and I played soccer with a bunch of people in Lazytown. Some of them are actually bearable. A couple of good things happened, I got to tackle and trip anyone I wanted and it always looked like an accident. That and I think I've got a real friend now. Trixie is a lot like me, except she's a real person. I offered to teach her to dance, and maybe in return I can learn more about.. well.. everything.

Robbie's out with the new school teacher Cherry today 'talking' and getting ice cream. I find that I don't feel very good about being left behind. I hope he gets back soon so we can go to Veronica's picnic. Robbie seems determined to avoid Veronica, but I think she's really great and we've had a long talk about what Robbie needs in his life. She says I care about Robbie because I want things to be better for him, but if I care, why do I hurt and make fun of him? Being alive sure is a strange experience.

Also, something bad happened. I tried to take the robot dog out for a walk earlier, but he saw another animal and ran off after it. I couldn't find him anywhere. I don't know what to do. I hope he's alright.

It's tomorrow, so I get to do another journal. What a relief, I was getting so bored. You see, I've been on the internet all night looking up sites about manners, and I've been trying to learn some since Robbie himself called me rude and nasty. I must be pretty bad for Robbie to say that.

So it looks like they have something called school in Lazytown, and I think i'm being pressured into going. It seems like it could be fun, and it could get me out this dreary place. If I were a normal human I would probably be utterly miserable down here.

Also, I've spoken to Robbie's ex-wife. Haha! I'm sorry, I still laugh whenever I hear that. I'm going to make sure she moves in, because Robbie needs a female around to keep him in order. I'd do it, but i'm not a real person. I'm pretty sure Robbie only thinks of me as another one of his failed inventions.

The manners websites I was looking at mentioned something called 'friends'. I realized I'm just as bad as Robbie when it comes to that area, so I'm making an effort to find some. I got invited to play soccer with the other kids, so maybe i'll make some friends there. I just hope I can keep my nasty comments to myself. Although Trixie seems to make some mean comments and they still like her, so I might do alright.

Well this is my first entry. I finally got a chance to use the computer now that Robbie's gone up to the surface. I think he's out trying to get that blue superhero to leave town forever or something. I don't know, and I don't really care. All I know is that now I don't have to rely on Robbie to wind me up anymore. That's right, I've figured out how to do it on my own. Things are going to be a lot different from now on, that's for sure!